Archive for July, 2007
The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing.
I had another gall stone attack at work. It was about, if not worse than the one I had when I went to the ER. I haven’t had one in awhile. I think maybe stress among other things caused it. I don’t know how much longer I can hold out.
It’s strange. I’ve always had the mindset of mind over matter. All I could focus on when it was happening was the pain, and not losing it in the middle of work. It felt like everything inside me was being compressed, like I was deep underwater. My temperature shot up, I started sweating profusely, and I could hear my blood pounding in my ears. It took every ounce of my will to walk.
Am I willing to go under the knife to have it removed? I don’t know. Part of me wants to be done with it. Yank out the eye that offends and all that. Another part of me wants to deal with it, attempt to rehabilitate it. I know it’ll never be how it used to be, unless I get it removed. It’s there for a reason though. It has a function. Not to mention gall stones can still form even after your gall bladder is removed. Yay.
